Dear Charlie,

Silver linings have always served me well.

For seventeen years and three hundred days,

my methods were wholly infallible.

If it was raining outside-oh well!

I’d build a fort and watch too much Disney.

Didn’t get into my first choice uni- oh well!

I much prefer Leicester’s rugby team.

My grandad’s death wasn’t so much ‘oh well’

but at least he was no longer in pain.

I could always find a silver lining.

 

But when you passed away, I was stunned

and gave up searching after the fourth day.

I could find nothing at all okay

In you dying two weeks before Christmas.

 

I couldn’t make any sense of it.

But when I came to uni, I realised

that I could make a legacy for you by

Saving The Lives of People with Blood Cancer.

People often walk past ignoring me.

I smile with feigned sympathy when I’m told

‘that’s awesome, but I’m afraid of needles’.

You keep me going at this because

the ghost of you is my loudest cheerleader –

and it’s because of you that three people

have saved the lives of complete strangers.

That means, it’s because of you that those

three families don’t have an empty chair

at the dinner table on Christmas day.

 

I know this doesn’t make it all okay,

but it’s not such a bad silver lining.

Hamburg

We didn’t stay in the nice area of Hamburg, so I didn’t see many beautiful things on our first evening, but the savings from the hostel mean lots of yummy food, and I think that’s a better use of funds! I’m very happy we went somewhere non-touristy for dinner last night, so we were able to experience Hamburg in a similar way to the locals. We dined in a pub that didn’t have a menu written in English, so I was very grateful for the lovely translator that is Liz. Then we went on a long and windy journey to find Speicherstadt, which is a UNESCO World Heritage Site. Partly because it was dark, and partly because the signs pointing towards it contradicted each other (as it’s so vast you can approach it from many different places) we walked past it at least four times before we realised it was right in front of us- great start, right?

UNESCO

Speicherstadt

Hamburg Pride

Germany celebrating the legalisation of gay marriage

The next day, we went sightseeing, first going to the Rathaus which was certainly more imposing than English equivalents. It looked the way I think Buckingham Palace should look, quite ornate but not too garish! Anyway, we then climbed 350m to the top of the tallest building in Hamburg and looked out at the City. From doing so, I discovered the very odd shapes that Hamburgers (I know it’s not the right term but I chuckled) make their buildings. On the way down, my legs started to feel very shaky and I did spend some time wondering whether it would be likely that I’d collapse at some point during this trip- so far so good! Also, people in Hamburg are obsessed with the Lion King and the musical has been running since the 1990s…just in case you’re interested in the particulars of their Musical Theatre trends.

Rathaus

The Rathaus

After that we had a lunch of Fischbrötchen, which is a rather pungent concoction of raw mackerel, tomatoes, lettuce and onion in a roll. It wasn’t great but I’m glad I tried it! As soon as we ordered, they put the Fischbrötchen on the counter to take, so I was a bit wary of the raw fish that had been sitting out for who knows how long in the 27C heat! My hands still smell a little fishy as I’m writing!

Fischbrotchen

Fischbrotchen! Looking much happier than after our first bite

We then went through the old tunnel under the river and connects the two sides of Hamburg together. *Slight intermission: so right now I’m on the train to Denmark and some guy is playing his guitar and singing- and he’s pretty good and I feel like I’m in the background of a rom-com!* The view of the harbor is very impressive and it’s so vast, definitely beats Felixstowe!

Finally, we visited the Opera House. The locals hate it because their taxes paid for it and it’s really expensive to go to a show there. It’s where they held a lot of the G20 meetings and Donald Trump has occasionally been inside. I say occasionally as, because he was tired, he sent Ivanka in his place several times apparently! I saw lots of ‘Fuck G20’ graffiti around and Liz told me how bad the riots and looting were when Trump visited!

After the Opera house we went back to relax before dinner. Dinner was at a restaurant that, once again, was aimed at Germans but through the magic of Trip Advisor we found it. ‘Twas yummy! I enjoyed seeing the Reeperbahn (Red Light district) which we walked through afterwards, it’s so hilarious to see all the couples walking through. The men are looking straight ahead, afraid that their girlfriends will think they’re looking at the prostitutes if they turn their heads even slightly…poor guys! If you stumbled into it by accident, you’d soon realise what was going on, barely dressed women are pushing each other out of the way to become more visible to passers-by. It looked like a fair ground though, the streets were brightly lit, and music and adverts were everywhere. That made for a strange contrast! It was quite surreal to see how brazenly sex was being sold in amongst children and families using the streets to go about their lives!

Tomorrow we leave for Denmark, and I’m very excited! Hamburg is lovely, but I don’t think I’ll be in a hurry to come back. It’s very metropolitan and has some incredible architecture, but there isn’t all that much to explore and there’s so much of the world out there I’ve yet to see. One day maybe, but I think I’ve got my eye on Berlin as my next German adventure!

 

 

Flying To Freiburg

I’m so excited to set off on my adventure! First hurdle: flying alone. I’m not a particularly nervous flyer and I’m not sure why, but it feels like a big deal. I’m being ridiculous of course, you can’t get lost in an airport really, but doing this alone is making me feel very adult and gives me a greater sense of independence than I’ve ever felt before, and it’s slightly daunting. My plan is to document this entire thing by taking notes on my phone which means 1) the writing will be rushed and therefore substandard, most likely with rather shocking grammatical errors and 2) the tenses will be weird. So, apologies in advance, because I certainly don’t see myself bothering to go back through everything to check it all- if this goes according to plan, there’s going to be a lot of writing!

I landed in either Germany, France or Switzerland, which was quite exciting both for me and my scratch map. Then I tried to find some lunch as I left the airport via Germany. Since I was in Germany and buying a pretzel, I spoke German to the cashier, who replied to me in French. Second hurdle: I don’t know any French besides the absolute basics. So that was a tricky one to manoeuvre. Thankfully, catching the Flixbus to meet Liz was easier.

Once we got to her flat I all I wanted to do was curl up and nap. I didn’t, and I have to confess the rest of the evening was a sleepy blur that involved packing, meeting people and cutting up avocados.

The next day we did a bit of sightseeing. Freiburg is very idyllic, especially the Black Forest area which I’m excited to explore more of when we go back. Because it’s an old City, Freiburg has mini streams that look like big gutters along the streets. They used to be used for putting out fires as there’s a constant stream of water, now they are used for children to sail their wooden boats down the streets, which is quite wonderful, I think. I’d quite like to play pooh sticks in them. I can’t give you a proper name for them because their name doesn’t translate into English, but I’m sure if you’re curious enough you’ll google them. Their name in German is Bächle.

Bachle

We visited the Freiburg Cathedral too. The building work started in the 1400s and there’s constantly work being done on it. Inside you can see pictures from WW2 bombings. All the houses nearest it have been absolutely devastated and the streets are a complete mess, but the Cathedral went completely unscathed. Liz thinks it’s a miracle, personally I think it’s because there aren’t houses that close by and maybe out of respect. Apparently, the Nazi’s bombed Canterbury and other beautiful places (that weren’t a strategic target) because the Allies bombed very beautiful areas and so the Germans retaliated, upset that the British destroyed their beautiful creations. Not sure if it’s true, but it doesn’t seem particularly far-fetched.

Tomorrow we start our Interrailing adventure. It seems like we have so much time ahead of us, but I’m sure this trip will be over in before we know it. Despite being excited, I’m finding it all a little daunting. We won’t have a home for a month, and we’ll have to rely on ourselves more so than we’ve ever had to before. There’s a lot of comfort in knowing that I have Liz by my side and I’m so excited for all our weird conversations and to see how we cope with each other every minute of every day for a whole month. Here we go!

Hosting a Gold Award Presentation at St James’ Palace

During High School and Sixth Form, I did my Bronze, Silver and Gold Duke of Edinburgh awards. DofE is mostly getting lost on mountains, dodging a lot of sheep, spending several days straight very damp, almost contracting hypothermia and crying alone in the middle of a field. Despite the bleak picture I’ve just painted, it’s quite fun…mostly retrospectively though. Once you’ve completed Gold, you become DofE Alumni, meaning that you can volunteer at awards ceremonies. I’m currently writing this very sleepily on my train home from a long day at St James’ Palace.

After wandering around London for a while, I found the entrance I was supposed to wait at. It was tucked away at the side of St James’ Park, but still heavily guarded. The Queen’s Guard (the very serious looking men with the black furry hats) are really lovely when you get on the inside of the gate. This happened at Buckingham Palace too. I remember the first time I visited Buckingham Palace. I think I was about six, and I made faces at the guards, hoping to make them laugh. I got a lot more upset than I should have done when they didn’t. But once you go through the gates into the courtyard, the smile and say hi and even wave at you! It’s so strange. I’m not a Royalist and I’ve never really paid much attention to the Monarchy. But I am British, so it’s probably very much ingrained in me that Queen’s Guards will never break their stance. It was such a bizarre experience!

Along with six other volunteers, I gave tours of the Palace to VIP guests and sat in on the awards ceremonies. I was given my Gold Award in the Gardens of Buckingham Palace because it was the 60th anniversary of the award. So, having never been inside St James’ Palace before, it was interesting to get to experience both locations. It was also lovely to hear the presentations that were given to the people who were receiving their awards, because I’d done it too. It gave me a greater sense of achievement, and a better understanding of how I can apply what I’ve learned in the real world.

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Us in St James’ Palace

The inside of the Palace is beautiful. Members of the Royal family live at St James’ so although some bits felt like a museum, it was quite homey in others. They even had a Christmas tree in the entrance hall. One of the first rooms you come to when you go upstairs is the Armoury. The walls are decorated with English Infantry swords and Indian pattern muskets which initially looks very odd, though impressive.

There’s also a Tudor fireplace that was made for Henry VIII. It has ‘H’ and ‘A’ (for Henry VIII and Anne Boleyn) inscribed on the top left-hand side, with a series of ornate designs running across. On the far right there’s a similar inscription, but this time just ‘H’. This is because the fireplace took so long to make that once the designers reached the right-hand side, Anne Boleyn had already been beheaded!

From there, you move into the Queen Anne room, which has several portraits hanging on the walls. There’s painting of a man with each limb on show and of a man who has one arm and one leg obscured by a horse. This is where the phrase, ‘that costs an arm and a leg’ originates from. Painters charged people by the limb to get their portraits done. This way of charging meant that people used portraits of themselves as status symbols, proving how much money they had by how many limbs were on show.

Next to this room is the Throne Room. As you walk in, the throne is at the far end, encircled by a red canopy. It’s the senior throne of the realm, which means it’s the one you see the Queen sitting on in portraits and on TV. The canopy around it is a very expensive material, so it’s held onto the ceiling with Velcro. This way, if there’s a fire, someone can yank it down and carry it out so that it’s not damaged!

These were the main rooms that we took the VIPs to on the tours, it was actually a lot of fun showing people around. It felt quite surreal that I was considered Palace staff. That wasn’t the weirdest bit though. The most surreal moment of the day was lunchtime. I was having a picnic on the floor of a Palace- and became very paranoid about dropping crumbs!

Overall, it was a very fun day and I made some lovely new friends in the other volunteers. The only bit I didn’t like, because I’m a complete wimp and terrified of anything that vaguely resembles a horror film, was a suspicious stain on the carpet. It’s about the size of a child’s coffin (creepy) and is dark from one angle and light from another. I was talking to some of the cleaners about it and they said that the carpet has been changed three times and the stain keeps coming back. Their theory is, because St James’ Palace used to be a hospital for people with leprosy, people are buried there, and secretions are coming up through the floor (creepier). After I was told, I avoided that patch of carpet.

Hopefully I don’t get haunted tonight.

 

 

 

Why Anthony Nolan is so important to me

On the morning of the 8th of December 2013, my friend got a call from her dad totally out of the blue. We’d had a sleepover the night before and were just getting ready to say goodbye. I vividly remember panicking as she burst into tears. Her dad had called her to tell her that one of his pupils had just died. This pupil just so happened to be a girl from our year at sixth form. Although I didn’t know her personally, it did still affect me. I’ve been very lucky in my life and had never had to deal with death so I didn’t really understand how to process it. In general, the way I deal with traumatic events is to create silver linings. But, for the first time ever, I was faced with a situation in which I couldn’t even entertain the possibility of something good occurring as result. There was just nothing about a seventeen year old girl dying a couple of weeks before Christmas that was okay. All I could think about for the next week was that her parents must have already bought all her Christmas presents and how horrible it would’ve been to give or throw them away. 

So, when I discovered Leicester Marrow, I realised I could create my own silver lining. Marrow is a society that represents Anthony Nolan and exists within 40 universities in the UK and 7 internationally. It raises awareness of the charity, fundraises and signs people up to the stem cell register. I only found out about Anthony Nolan because of Charlie’s illness. They had found her a stem cell match but unfortunately as her immune system was weak, she passed away. I thought that if I could save just one person, then Charlie’s death would at least have had something good come from it. 

Anthony Nolan is a charity that helps people, like Charlie, who have blood cancer. It matches them with people who can donate their stem cells or bone marrow in the hope that it will cure the sufferer. 

 Anthony Nolan literally changes, and saves, the lives of thousands of people. 

 If you are aged between 16-30 and weigh above 7st12lbs and are below a BMI of 40 you are most likely an eligible donor. What happens is that you fill out a form and spit in a little tube. The tube of your DNA then gets analysed and if your stem cells match a person with blood cancer or another type of blood disease, you’d get contacted. There are two types of donation and the most common one is donation via blood. On three consecutive days, a nurse will visit you and inject you with G-CSF which is a synthetic growth hormone. The next day you go to a special hospital (paid for by Anthony Nolan) and have the last injection. These stimulate stem cell production in your body. Then it works a bit like kidney dialysis. You’re attached to a machine that takes your blood from one arm and filters it, keeping the stem cells and giving back your blood through the other arm. The other method is quite rare and it’s donation via bone marrow. You go to a specialised hospital, again completely paid for, and get a general anaesthetic. Then your bone marrow is taken from your pelvic bone using a needle and syringe. Anthony Nolan unfortunately only works within the UK but I do know of similar charities in the U.S. and Europe, so if you are from elsewhere in the world you can still make a huge impact! 

 The way I see it, I only know about Anthony Nolan because of Charlie. Therefore I only joined Leicester Marrow because of her. Over the past couple of years I have helped to sign up over 1,700  people to the register- that works out as potentially 170 lives saved by the amazing people who signed up to the register. I’m not sure how many people I’ve personally signed up, although I do know that I’ve had far too much spit on my hands for my liking! It comes down to this: if Charlie hadn’t died, I never would have recruited lots of potential lifesavers who can cure people like her. So, everyone that gets cured because of my involvement in Anthony Nolan is someone who is able to live because Charlie didn’t. I know it doesn’t justify her death or make it okay, but I think that’s a pretty cool legacy for her to leave!

https://www.anthonynolan.org 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wN2nEft7iAU

How my Love of Travel Began

From watching too many episodes of Don’t Tell the Bride, I’ve discovered that most girls start planning their wedding when they’re about five years old. I was never really like that. When I was five, I started planning my route around the world.

My first attempt to leave England wasn’t exactly a success. I was in Nursery and my boyfriend, Kyle, and I decided that since we were so in love, we were going to elope to Australia. We realised that the bus to Australia would be significantly more expensive than the bus into town, so we’d have to wait a while before we could afford to go. I saved up my 20p a week pocket money for ages. To cut a long story short, I didn’t make it- seconds after getting in the queue for the bus I burst into tears because I was so terrified of leaving my parents.

Despite the disastrous attempt, I was still obsessed with exotic beaches, far off cultures and strange looking food. Every day I drew a map of an island and made up a story about the people who lived there. I created languages and ceremonial dances, I gave them bugs to cook and leaves to crush into medicine. The best islands had fairies on them. As a child, I was unaware of plagiarism and fond of Peter Pan so my favourite island had flying people who never aged and an angry group of pirates…and there were always mermaids. Whenever I visited the islands, I was always a mermaid.

One day I drew a treasure map and followed it round my classroom. It led me straight to my book-bag and I was amazed. I thought it proved that God existed, or that magic was real! I think it was soon after that I put ‘buried treasure’ in the sandpit at school and took my friends on an adventure to find it. Ever since then, though I’ve reluctantly accepted it was probably more coincidence than magic, I still find something inherently beautiful about maps. I love following a trail into the unknown to discover completely new cultures and ways of life!

Although I have neither the funds nor the time to explore as much of the world as I’d like, I have been lucky enough to make a good start. Amongst a few other things, this blog will give you an idea of my adventures so far- and hopefully inspire some of your own travels!